My first time outdoors cumming as a "girl&
Here goes, my first blog entry.
Few days ago i teased myself really good, by making a compilation of my webcam videos and uploading it to Xhamster, it's not published yet though. I really held myself back that day, it was hard to deny myself a craving to cum that bad. It was about a week ago that i came for the previous time before that so you can guess, was i horny or not. On the next day, working, i had a really hard time concentrating on my job. I constantly found myself dreaming about dressing up and doing really dirty things. At some point that day, i decided that i need to get new clothes and play with myself asap. Searching for new stuff at the store i constantly was embarrassed by the fact that i was shopping for women's clothes. I really tried to leave a impression that i wasthere to buy things for a gf that i really didn't have. The cashier, mid aged woman somehow looked at me in a way that made me feel even more uncomfortable when i roamed through the shelves. I am sure that i confirmed her doubts about my intentions when i placed rather big slutty looking heels on the counter with my other slutty things. As i gave her the money for my goods, i was by no doubt blushing badly. I briefly got to my car and started to drive home, wondering at the same time, how much of the enjoyment comes from the shame of doing these things. After getting home i was disrupted to carry alonq with my intentions. Oh the pain of talking to people when the only thing on your mind is dressing up and getting on your knees. After being left alone, i continued where i left off, spreading all my shoppings on the floor and dressing up. After testing all the possible combos, i was really turned on. First thought was of course to get on the cam and show myself off, i really enjoy doing my cam sessions. Already setting everything up, i got a better idea. I had never been outside when being all dressed up, after going through all of the dangers in my head, there was no way back. But where to go? After scrolling through google maps for a while, i thought i found a place, at the outskirts of the city between suburbs. There seemed to be enough space and privacy but also a big highway and smaller roads next to it, providing me the danger that i so badly crave after. But what to wear and how to get there at the first place? I pulled on my black fishnet stockings and my new colorful transparent skirt, that has a uneven bottom part. Then i pulled on my black satin strings that have small pink dots on them and a small pink dangling gem and a ribbon in the front. The top was a baby blue tight sweater that had a big cleavege so you could see my shoulders. Then i also tied a silk scarf around my neck and sprayed myself with my sexy womens's cucci parfume that i got for these special purposes. After fitting on my cleopatra style black wig, i was ready to roll. By that time i was really horny and came out with a new great idea, i would tie up my balls to make myself even more horny. Balls tied up with a scrunchy, bursting from discomfort and pain i carried on. But how will i get to my car and not to be seen by my neighbours? After a while i was looking as normal as i could, wearing sneakers, sweatpants and sports jacket. I briefly packed my essential things, wig, platform heels, vibrator and a bottle of lube. After packing the stuff i decided to try if the batteries are ok in the vibrator and clearly they were not, vibrator was working on a level 2 from 10 that it usually did. Soon, in my car, driving to the nearest petrol station to get the batteries, things on my mind were, shame, guilt and embarrassment. Cashier was looking at me really weirdly, probably because i was smelling like a club whore, blushing again and paying for batteries. Driving to my destination, i was really uncomfortable because of my tied up and throbbing balls, it was nearly impossible to get my knees together from pain when driving. As i was still trying to do that, i was moaning from the pain, witch i also happen enjoy in small amounts. Soon after that i was in the outskirts of the city and i pulled over to the side of the road. I then removed all my manclothes revealing my slutty ones, fitted on my platform heels and continued driving to my destination. Before that i briefly removed the scrunchy, not for a long time though but enough to make wearing it bearable again. After avoiding other cars and people, i arrived at the spot, almost gotten caught couple of times by random drivers and people. There was a bus stop on the side of a small road and a small bunch of trees behind that. About 60 meters behind the trees was a big lighted highway, you could clearly hear the cars driving by. After parking up, my hands were shaking as i lighted my cigarette and got out of the car. It was really creepy in the woods because it was really dark outside, it was about 1pm at the time. Walking there, dressed up, cigarette between my lips, vibrator in one hand and lube in other, it was surreal. I was thinking constantly that i will get caught, there would be a bus stopping at the stop or somebody in the woods or police coming to check my car and discover me during the check up. My adrenaline levels shot through the roof and i was so horny and exited like never before. I dropped my panties and kneeled, i then lubed my fingers and started to stretch my pussy. After a while i thought i was ready, then i lied down on the ground on my back. After stretching my pussy a little more i quickly lubed the vibrator, as it slided in after few slips, causing slight pain, i was in heaven. Me, on my back, fucking myself between small batch of trees, cars constantly driving by, the feeling was amazing. After only 7-10 thrust with the vibrator, the sissy was cumming badly. I couldn't count the spurts because i was so high from the moment, but there were many i can tell you that. At the state of ecstasy, i licked my fingers clean from cum, and then closed my eyes lying and resting there. After few seconds, my head started to clear, i found myself lying down in the woods at night, on my back, stomach and chest full of cum. Fear and shame were there again, boosting me to act quickly and get my stuff together and get out of there. I think it would have been a great view, me hurrying along in my airy skirt, panties tied around my right leg ankle, covered in cum, vibrator in one and lube in another hand. After dressing up and leaving, i lighted a new cigarette and savoured the moment. I was really glad i did it, the fear of getting caught and the humiliation coming with that, got me really worked up and horny. Every time i cum when playing like that, i get really ashamed about myself for a moment, soon the feeling fades, but it comes nonetheless. Fear of the arriving shame and guilt when masturbating and fucking myself with my toys is a great part of the my experience and i admit that i like the fear and feeling of the shame, it makes me feel dirty and slutty, that is what i am, a dirty slut.
After getting home, i looked my status on my video, got carried away with one video and came another time with a vibrator in my pussy. Suprisingly, there was some cum left and it tasted as dirty and good as before that day ;)
Here's the video that got me all worked up for the second time, i really wish i was her. :P
http://ko.xhamstervideo.net/movies/1740794/skinny_french_trap_gets_fucked.html
If there's some positive feedback, i might collect my courage and write something again.
Thank you for reading, hope you like it, i sure did liked doing all that :)
Few days ago i teased myself really good, by making a compilation of my webcam videos and uploading it to Xhamster, it's not published yet though. I really held myself back that day, it was hard to deny myself a craving to cum that bad. It was about a week ago that i came for the previous time before that so you can guess, was i horny or not. On the next day, working, i had a really hard time concentrating on my job. I constantly found myself dreaming about dressing up and doing really dirty things. At some point that day, i decided that i need to get new clothes and play with myself asap. Searching for new stuff at the store i constantly was embarrassed by the fact that i was shopping for women's clothes. I really tried to leave a impression that i wasthere to buy things for a gf that i really didn't have. The cashier, mid aged woman somehow looked at me in a way that made me feel even more uncomfortable when i roamed through the shelves. I am sure that i confirmed her doubts about my intentions when i placed rather big slutty looking heels on the counter with my other slutty things. As i gave her the money for my goods, i was by no doubt blushing badly. I briefly got to my car and started to drive home, wondering at the same time, how much of the enjoyment comes from the shame of doing these things. After getting home i was disrupted to carry alonq with my intentions. Oh the pain of talking to people when the only thing on your mind is dressing up and getting on your knees. After being left alone, i continued where i left off, spreading all my shoppings on the floor and dressing up. After testing all the possible combos, i was really turned on. First thought was of course to get on the cam and show myself off, i really enjoy doing my cam sessions. Already setting everything up, i got a better idea. I had never been outside when being all dressed up, after going through all of the dangers in my head, there was no way back. But where to go? After scrolling through google maps for a while, i thought i found a place, at the outskirts of the city between suburbs. There seemed to be enough space and privacy but also a big highway and smaller roads next to it, providing me the danger that i so badly crave after. But what to wear and how to get there at the first place? I pulled on my black fishnet stockings and my new colorful transparent skirt, that has a uneven bottom part. Then i pulled on my black satin strings that have small pink dots on them and a small pink dangling gem and a ribbon in the front. The top was a baby blue tight sweater that had a big cleavege so you could see my shoulders. Then i also tied a silk scarf around my neck and sprayed myself with my sexy womens's cucci parfume that i got for these special purposes. After fitting on my cleopatra style black wig, i was ready to roll. By that time i was really horny and came out with a new great idea, i would tie up my balls to make myself even more horny. Balls tied up with a scrunchy, bursting from discomfort and pain i carried on. But how will i get to my car and not to be seen by my neighbours? After a while i was looking as normal as i could, wearing sneakers, sweatpants and sports jacket. I briefly packed my essential things, wig, platform heels, vibrator and a bottle of lube. After packing the stuff i decided to try if the batteries are ok in the vibrator and clearly they were not, vibrator was working on a level 2 from 10 that it usually did. Soon, in my car, driving to the nearest petrol station to get the batteries, things on my mind were, shame, guilt and embarrassment. Cashier was looking at me really weirdly, probably because i was smelling like a club whore, blushing again and paying for batteries. Driving to my destination, i was really uncomfortable because of my tied up and throbbing balls, it was nearly impossible to get my knees together from pain when driving. As i was still trying to do that, i was moaning from the pain, witch i also happen enjoy in small amounts. Soon after that i was in the outskirts of the city and i pulled over to the side of the road. I then removed all my manclothes revealing my slutty ones, fitted on my platform heels and continued driving to my destination. Before that i briefly removed the scrunchy, not for a long time though but enough to make wearing it bearable again. After avoiding other cars and people, i arrived at the spot, almost gotten caught couple of times by random drivers and people. There was a bus stop on the side of a small road and a small bunch of trees behind that. About 60 meters behind the trees was a big lighted highway, you could clearly hear the cars driving by. After parking up, my hands were shaking as i lighted my cigarette and got out of the car. It was really creepy in the woods because it was really dark outside, it was about 1pm at the time. Walking there, dressed up, cigarette between my lips, vibrator in one hand and lube in other, it was surreal. I was thinking constantly that i will get caught, there would be a bus stopping at the stop or somebody in the woods or police coming to check my car and discover me during the check up. My adrenaline levels shot through the roof and i was so horny and exited like never before. I dropped my panties and kneeled, i then lubed my fingers and started to stretch my pussy. After a while i thought i was ready, then i lied down on the ground on my back. After stretching my pussy a little more i quickly lubed the vibrator, as it slided in after few slips, causing slight pain, i was in heaven. Me, on my back, fucking myself between small batch of trees, cars constantly driving by, the feeling was amazing. After only 7-10 thrust with the vibrator, the sissy was cumming badly. I couldn't count the spurts because i was so high from the moment, but there were many i can tell you that. At the state of ecstasy, i licked my fingers clean from cum, and then closed my eyes lying and resting there. After few seconds, my head started to clear, i found myself lying down in the woods at night, on my back, stomach and chest full of cum. Fear and shame were there again, boosting me to act quickly and get my stuff together and get out of there. I think it would have been a great view, me hurrying along in my airy skirt, panties tied around my right leg ankle, covered in cum, vibrator in one and lube in another hand. After dressing up and leaving, i lighted a new cigarette and savoured the moment. I was really glad i did it, the fear of getting caught and the humiliation coming with that, got me really worked up and horny. Every time i cum when playing like that, i get really ashamed about myself for a moment, soon the feeling fades, but it comes nonetheless. Fear of the arriving shame and guilt when masturbating and fucking myself with my toys is a great part of the my experience and i admit that i like the fear and feeling of the shame, it makes me feel dirty and slutty, that is what i am, a dirty slut.
After getting home, i looked my status on my video, got carried away with one video and came another time with a vibrator in my pussy. Suprisingly, there was some cum left and it tasted as dirty and good as before that day ;)
Here's the video that got me all worked up for the second time, i really wish i was her. :P
http://ko.xhamstervideo.net/movies/1740794/skinny_french_trap_gets_fucked.html
If there's some positive feedback, i might collect my courage and write something again.
Thank you for reading, hope you like it, i sure did liked doing all that :)
10년 전
thanks for sharing