Vanilla straight guy looking to be corrupted
I'm a married, straight guy, who is boringly vanilla in every sexual aspect. Never tried anything wild or kinky in bed (or out of bed).
The reason I am here is that for some time my wife and I have stopped having sex (she is just never in the mood), and so I have started watching porn at night when my wife has gone to bed. It started out innocently enough with big breasted blondes giving blowjobs etc. However, over time I started searching more and more for videos with dominant women. After having watched that kind of porn for quite some time now, it's starting to be all I can think about. What's worse is that I fear I have been corrupted more than I should. I am 100% straight - the thought of other men in a sexual context is an immediate turn-off. Yet... Through these videoes, I have not only seen men being humiliated and used and forced to service their mistresses dildos with mouth and ass, but also to service other mens cocks. Initially something I skipped, but after having watched 100s of videos, it's gotten to a point, where I actually open my own mouth a little when I masturbate to those kind of videos. The day I realised that I could feel tiny **** of fear forming in my stomach, and knew I could not go back. I still do not find men attractive in any way, but... The thought making your mistress happy by servicing a cock (as much as it disgusts me) makes my cock so very hard.
Of course, all of this ended up with me starting to watch shemale porn. You get the cock, but the female body, which I worship so (I confess I have a thing for large breasts). I just love a sexy feminine woman (but now also one with a cock).
I doubt that I will ever live out any of these scary fantasies in real life. But I would very much love to pursue them here with anyone that would like to join me in this journey towards darkness. I am thinking email exchanges and chat, but I am also open for other ideas.
My biggest fear is that the more I give in to these fantasies here - the harder it will become for me to not eventually try to experiment in real life.
My email is: [email protected]
The reason I am here is that for some time my wife and I have stopped having sex (she is just never in the mood), and so I have started watching porn at night when my wife has gone to bed. It started out innocently enough with big breasted blondes giving blowjobs etc. However, over time I started searching more and more for videos with dominant women. After having watched that kind of porn for quite some time now, it's starting to be all I can think about. What's worse is that I fear I have been corrupted more than I should. I am 100% straight - the thought of other men in a sexual context is an immediate turn-off. Yet... Through these videoes, I have not only seen men being humiliated and used and forced to service their mistresses dildos with mouth and ass, but also to service other mens cocks. Initially something I skipped, but after having watched 100s of videos, it's gotten to a point, where I actually open my own mouth a little when I masturbate to those kind of videos. The day I realised that I could feel tiny **** of fear forming in my stomach, and knew I could not go back. I still do not find men attractive in any way, but... The thought making your mistress happy by servicing a cock (as much as it disgusts me) makes my cock so very hard.
Of course, all of this ended up with me starting to watch shemale porn. You get the cock, but the female body, which I worship so (I confess I have a thing for large breasts). I just love a sexy feminine woman (but now also one with a cock).
I doubt that I will ever live out any of these scary fantasies in real life. But I would very much love to pursue them here with anyone that would like to join me in this journey towards darkness. I am thinking email exchanges and chat, but I am also open for other ideas.
My biggest fear is that the more I give in to these fantasies here - the harder it will become for me to not eventually try to experiment in real life.
My email is: [email protected]
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